Thursday, August 31, 2006

September

So, it's September again.
It's mind boggling to think back to where I was...to who I was the last time this month came around.

Well, I guess I owe everybody an update.
At the moment, I am in Jacksonville, FL...but only for the week. I'm down here as a guest artist teaching some master classes for East Coast Ballet (the studio I taught for when I lived here).
As far as the longer term view of things...the story is, that for the time being, I will be staying in Oklahoma. This fall I will be teaching for 3 different studios (Ballet Oklahoma, as well as 2 smaller ones in Edmond), and I will also be working at a healthcare billing company as a data entry clerk. I'll be taking classes with the company at Ballet O and also possibly be working a little with a local modern dance company. My foot and ankle and healing slowly, but surely. Next week I am hoping to get the final go ahead from my doctor to be able to fully dance on it. Unfortunately, it just simply is going to take longer to get back to normal than I ever thought.

As of right now, no more news from Cirque du Soleil (no Molly, I'm not cirque du bex yet. BTW, that totally cracked me up). The only audition location currently listed on their website is in India, but I'm assuming they will wait and contact me again once they have another audition set up in the states. Otherwise, I guess I should make sure and set some money aside in case I need to buy a plane ticket to India at a moment's notice.

I think that just about sums it up for now. As far as Nashville goes, I really had no idea I would miss it as much as I do. It's simply ridiculous. But I'm choosing to assume that God knows what He's doing and try to go along with that. I love and miss you all and will hopefully be back there, at least to visit, sooner rather than later.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

The Living Dichotomy

Livin', chillin', shelling out words of wisdom for 5 cents a pop...

Or better yet, a smoke.

Quoted then misquoted,

A few translations lost at each turn.

Burning the night at both ends,

Deflecting trends, then creating new ones by mistake.

Taking and taken for granted by

everyone and everything ever placed on a pillar of importance.

Seeking chance for a tour guide takes you on a cruel and thrilling ride,

Especially when using frequent flyer miles.

Biding times like these, both now and before.

Poor and always pouring out blood, sweat, tears and rum.

Running in place, looking back with detachment

At the other side of the glass.


Past worries and fears bring new pain and shorter years.

Tearing down walls, and mending some fences,

Growing and trying to "live up to potential".

Too much for one, not enough for all.

Trying to pick up the pieces, no matter how far they fall.

The epitome of flying, or rather, falling with style.

Learning to be a man through it all, all the while.

Half blind, half psychic, half prophet, half sage,

Losing disciples, and gaining new ones with age.

Through the best and the worst, you're the best and the worst.

And only she and I know your magic and curse.

Your truth and your life, your myths and your strife.

You're better than you know, and worse than you dreamed,

And I know that none of this was ever in your scheme.

All I know is, I'm thankful for all, and the rest

Is up to the history books. For now it's a test.

Test of time, test of love, test of friendship and growth.

Staring at the darkness and swearing an oath.

My muse, my lover, my teacher, my friend,

Your have my gratitude from now 'til the end.

Car Crash

"For once I want to be the car crash
Not always just the traffic jam
Hit me hard enough to wake me
And lead me wild to your dark roads

Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cos I'm so tired of all ths fear

My tongue is lost, oh, I can't tell you
Please just see it in my eyes
I pull up thorns from our ripped bodies
And let the blood fall in my mouth

Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
'Cause I'm so tired of all ths fear

Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
'Cause I'm so tired of all ths fear"

- "Headlights On Dark Roads", Snow Patrol

Friday, August 04, 2006

Please wait for me...

"Steal my heart and hold my tongue.
I feel my time, my time has come.
Let me in, unlock the door.
I've never felt this way before.

The wheels just keep on turning,
The drummer begins to drum,
I don't know which way I'm going,
I don't know which way I've come.

Hold my hand inside your hands,
I need someone who understands.
I need someone, someone who hears,
For you, I've waited all these years.

For you, I'd wait 'til kingdom come.
Until my day, my day is done.
And say you'll come, and set me free,
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.

In your tears and in your blood,
In your fire and in your flood,
I hear you laugh, I heard you say,
"I wouldn't change a single thing."

The wheels just keep on turning,
The drummers begin to drum,
I don't know which way I'm going,
I don't know what I've become.

For you, I'd wait 'til kingdom come,
Until my days, my days are done.
Say you'll come and set me free,
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me."

- "Til Kingdom Come", Coldplay