And all will be absolved

Obsession beats through my heart

Pounding, deafening any attempt to be comfortable

An ache that brings tears to my eyes for lack of other suitable expression

I weep for the beauty that I do not know how to create

The longing to feel the art and passion flow

Tumbling, cascading through my body and out my fingertips

It lingers just beyond my grasp

In weariness I try to ignore it

Try to just rest, to be satisfied with normalcy

But just when I've almost convinced the world that I can be like the rest

Just when I've almost decided that the fear is stronger

And accepted it as my master

The fear that it will never work

It will never be good enough

Just when the numbness is almost complete

Then the hunger, the drive, the unquenchable fire pricks my soul

It will never let me rest

And I know it is useless to try to be normal

To try to be content

I will always want it

I am destined for this misery

Knowing that I will die without my art

But never fully conquering the fear that I will never attain it

Doomed if I do

Doomed if I don't

But the damnation I can accept is that which is accompanied by that lovely moment of creation

The purest ecstasy of the instant when all collides in perfection

I will drown to be alive

That is the torture that I choose

It is within that madness that will I find my sanity

And my peace

In that moment...

In that moment...I loved you

In that moment...you were mine

In that moment...you held me

And lost all trace of time

In that moment...we connected

In that moment...I was yours to find

In that moment...nothing else mattered

Except feeling your hand in mine

In that moment...we were needed

In that moment...we were lost

In that moment...we were reminded

What we had given up and at what cost

In that moment...we knew it was over

In that moment...it never began

In that moment...we took what we had and flew

Until we were forced to land

When a moment is all you are given

Sometimes a moment is all that it takes

So I'm grateful we had that one moment in time

And can smile as we walk away

Good-bye Nashville

"I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you,
Because I knew you,
I have been changed for good

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
And none of it seems to matter anymore....

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better.
And because I knew you,
Because I knew you,
Because I knew you,
I have been changed for good."

- "For Good", Wicked